it's so fluffy i'm gonna die

OH MY HOLY GOODNESS

I CAN HAZ ONE???

pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease?

http://imgur.com/7OejU

berkeley ward talent show

I played and sang 'Eli the Barrow Boy' (the Decemberists) at the

Berkeley University ward talent show, which is actually the same

thing I played and sang at the Pittsburgh YSA ward talent show.

I told Murphy I didn't need the microphone, but he insisted on holding it there.

turns out it wasn't even on. told him I didn't need it :) ...

then Andy played 'Easter Song'

we hadn't warmed up together, but I sang with him anyway.

turns out that tight throat muscles from nervousness

works out alright with my range for the Decemberists,

but not so well with high wispy backups for Andy.

I like this one a lot :)

I love how pleased we look, and also the bit of hesitation,

of seeing how it's been received.

I think it captures well the emotional vulnerability

of sharing music, because you're sharing yourself too.

thanks to carol hogan for the photography

she's great :)

pictures yay!

I haven't taken many pictures but I finally uploaded them.

tada!

plane ride to san francisco to visit andy for his birthday

birthday! homemade pound cake with strawberries & whipped cream.

made by yours truly.

he's excited :)

the sunset we watched go down standing on the golden gate bridge.

picture of the other side of the bridge, towards east bay.

(picture I was snapping while andy tied my shoe,

right before he asked me to marry him)

right after I said yes :)

me and mom about to begin our cross-country road trip

pretty country

origami easter bunnies (thanks betsy, for the idea)

now I can finally say what's been going on

hi kids.

do you remember that time when I used to write stuff on here? yeah, me too.

guess what? a billion important crazy things happened! and I didn't tell you because I was keeping it all under wraps sos I could surprise andy's family with the news ...

but now it's all happened (and past happening, actually, I've just been too busy to write) and now I can tell you :)

I left grad school. I resigned from winter term, quit my jobs, packed up my stuff, left half of it in pittsburgh and took the other half in my little honda back to my house in virginia and then all the way across the country to california. my momma drove with me across virginia, tennessee (pretty pretty tennessee), arkansas, oklahoma, texas, new mexico, and utah. we spent a weekend with celesta and company in utah valley, and then andy drove with me through nevada to california. I found an apartment with great girls who needed a roommate. I found a job that is not nearly as good as I'd hoped, but it pays well, so I can stay until I no longer need to stay. and I found an andy here waiting for me.

I embarked. I arrived. I started another adventure.

sometimes it's surreal to think that this is where I am and it seems so crazy that I'm an adult and I do stuff. I make decisions and then I act on them. I ask God what I should do and then I'm brave and I do it. even when it's kind of crazy and a little bit scary and unexpected.

but still, everything makes so much sense. and concurrently, no sense at all. there's still so many unanswered questions, yet always the understanding that I don't need all of the answers right now.

I'm in love. I am so completely in love. it makes everything brighter and sharper and more alive, and fogged out and insignificant at the same time.

isn't it so funny and fantastic that this is my life?

it was awesome, and then it got awesomer

andy got a totoro hat for his birthday!

and then we got engaged :)

not a bad jaunt, I'd say :)

a jaunt

tomorrow, I am getting on an airplane, again.

in a dress, of course.

to visit this place, for the very first time:

where I will see my very favorite person

who I haven't seen in far too long.

I will try to remember to take pictures.

dreamblog minipost

this dream had angelina jolie in it, which is weird, because I can't stand her. she was tricked into capture by none other than brad pitt. she was sitting on a cot with another woman. she had on red lipstick (of course). another woman was standing in front of her next to the cot her head was out of the frame, because it was like a movie in my head she was on the side of the captors, was wearing a brown small houndstooth skirt suit, holding a large sheaf of papers or a book, not sure which.

then, fast as lightning, jolie snatches one of the papers in her arms, which is brown like parcel paper, and in a whir, folds it into a little dart thing, like a tiny paper airplane, and throws it at the suit woman's chest. it sticks her and she bleeds. jolie grabs another paper and folds speed-quick again. the woman turns and walks away, towards me/the screen. jolie throws the 2nd dart at her back and the woman falls over dead. then there was a totally bizarre part with this cartoon bear dressed in a wonderwoman costume ... ?

um, yeah.